why??what??

I have been thinking over this question since last week. What is the purpose of my life? Why am I brought here? What am I supposed to acheive?

For many things in life that we do, we usually look for a purpose or an objective in doing so or even ask ourselves why am i doing it?Like even in writing composition we need a purpose, in solving a math problem we need to know what we have to acheive at the end of it .

Actually i haven't really been thinking for the whole week about this question. Just remembered this when i was quietly sitting in church waiting for mass to start. and also when someone spoke about purpose today again.

It might be a short, 7 word question. and might seem easy to answer at first. but after thinking for a few seconds you might start getting puzzled. that's what happened to me.

This question really needs a lot of reflection and looking back at what we have done. and also what we are going to do.

I am still thinking about this one. maybe will let you know when i've found the answer

maddening place i am in

3 weeks of sch has already passed. So many things have happened. Sometimes, i don't even realise that it's happening and i just go through it.or maybe i don't even have the time to think through.

1. sec1 orientation
2. cca day
3. i am in potters&scribe now (a church ministry)
4. preparatory exams
5. applying the new structure of the student council we discussed about during the holidays
6. my class that is going through like some disease
7. something to be excited about,FINALLY......
8. chinese new year
   

the sec1 orientation was alright. i was not the one really in-charge so does not really matter.However, i spent the time after lunch on that day to prepare for cca day the next day. This time, i was in-charge. I did for the student council but did not for NPCC. It was i can call it a success because many people signed up. the application forms had thickness of my science textbook.

another thing, i am in potters&scribe now. Actually i had to sign up for one as my pastoral attachment(PA) so that i can fulfill the criteria to be confirmed in may. Looks like if u take a copy of the tomorrow newspaper, my name may be there.Haha.The preparatory exams were so horrible.I had exams like the whole week. after one paper had ended, you will have to start thinking about the next. i think that was the most taxing week so far.

Like what i have mentioned earlier, my class is going through some disease and it's spreading fast. A cure is needed to be found fast or the whole class will get killed . I have no idea why just choosing a chairperson and a vice chair is so difficult thing to do. Actually it's not difficult but some people just like creating a havoc out of nothing.Why can't they convert their energy into doing something more useful for the class like decorating the noticeboard instead of causing trouble.

The Happiest Event Award goes to ........
I am officially promoted to vice-president of the student council now. I never expected this to happen but it just did. When mr wee broke the news to me on a saturday before chem class, i did not know what to say. i was just smiling there. maybe that's who i am, i do not show much emotions in everything that i do. The whole student council also finally received their new councillor badges. We recited the pledge again and received the badge.That was also when the teacher announce that i was vice.

lastly, the first day of chinese new year is today. Went to church in the morning and went to cousin's house for lunch after that. Food was delicious.For reunion dinner, we had a 8 course dinner at home with menu specially made.

nite!
Vannessa

Good Bye 2008, Welcome 2009!

Wow, 2008 has passed and 2009 is here. 2008 has been a great year for me but i am not sure for the rest. i hope and pray that 2009 will be as good or maybe better. But many people say that 2009 will be a worse year compared to 2008. all the recessions. today's the start of 2009,010109,haha. and tomorrow's the start of sch. I think i will not have much time anymore when sch starts do update my blog. Anyway, i am going to post some pics from my birthday. I know that my birthday was like so long time ago but it doesn't matter.

5days and 2 hrs more to Christmas!!

It's been so long since i posted my last entry. As usual in my life, so many things has happened.all the enjoyment, fun, work, meetings, parties, food, and many many other things.I think i went to malaysia for a week without even staying there. Love the baskin robbins. So, 5days and 2 hrs more to Christmas!!, at the same time, maybe 2 weeks more till sch reopens.

Sec 1 registration was today. Met some weird and at the same time some nice people. There are many things this world is made out of.It would be nice when sch reopens but thinking of next year- O-level!!The holidays may be too long but sch may also be the same =. so what do we want actually?

teaching ryan how to ride the bicycle. He just can't balance his body. Wonder how are the days when i learnt how to ride one. I only know that i fell many times.

The whole student council is also going through like some restructuring??THere will also be a councillor camp this monday. People please come!!Why can't u all just follow??

So, Christmas can't wait! The christmas tree has been put up.Maybe will be spending time in chinese garden for a picnic with my cousins and the whole family. I think there will be a christmas league. Haha. Family vs family. Isn't it cool?? I really am looking forward to that.

Anyway, do enjoy yourselves these remaining few days this year. This year passes really fast and i do not intend to say goodbye to it.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Psych

Holidays Official starting

The Holidays are here.Means no more headstart and remedial programmes. But maybe still have to go back for council things.The council has changed many things but i am still the secretary/treasurer but i thing added internal discipline.Hahaha.Many people will be going for their holidays now or going back home.but i dunno whether i will be going or not. Maybe. So, the councillor shirt is done finally. Orange. After much bugging frm those that i ask money from i always say,"My job is to collect money only the shirt u will have to ask another person"Those some people will understand it when or if they take over my job.
It's since has been 1 year i came went to india.Haha.Just saw the picture on facebook.
Also went to borders to buy a book."RUN" by jeff abbott. Read until pg 80 i think. Nowadays i am reading so slowly. Don't know whether is it the font is small or i really have read slower. Anyway there was a sentence, "The knife in the hand doesn't buy security when the other man has a bigger knife".So true.

I watched Quantum of Solace , the new james bond movie on 5/11. It was nice. A lot of action but i think the previous is better.

that's all for now. Happy Holidays!

After a long long time

Finally i am updating my blog. I have always wanted to do it but was very lazy.So many things have happened throughout this period in my life.Let me list them down:
a) end-of-year results
b)sch has finally ended
c)all the IRP, Headstart programme
d)Physics, Chemistry SPA
e)teachers leaving the sch
f)the "CRASHING" economy
g)My "GREAT" birthday
h)"FRIENDSHIP" problems- don't think about nonsensical things
i)finally got to get back to JB

My end year results are ok. Not too bad but not that fantastic either.2A1,2A2,1B3,1B4,1C5. But at the very least i improved from the beginning of the year.Got 7 in class. Looks like this year i never moved from 7-10.Hope to do better in sec4. The bigger news, sch's ended for year 2008.But the biggest news is that ther is still the Headstart and IRP programme.A larger news is that there was still Phy and Chem SPA. I could do those experiments but could not answer those questions. How fustrating! I could not sleep the past 2 nights because of the physics questions.Mr Jeremy Tan and Mr Ong left the school.That's sad cause Mr Ong can't teach us Phy anymore.And the worse thing is some people say Mr Gary Lee may take over.Mdm Shanti also left.

The "CRASHING" economy is seriously crashing and i cannot do anything about it. Just do what u have been thought since young, save money. That's the only thing you can do now.

Now, my "GREAT" birthday is "GREAT" in many ways. Xiao Wan, Meila and Sue Ann brought me to swensens. I seriously did not know they were trying to celebrate my birthday. Until Wan said." Should we tell her know?"I thought don't tell me they were trying to do something some people tried doing to me last year.I was so happy on the way back home.The other "GREAT" part was that i was sick on the actual day of my birthday.Why am I always sick on my birthday?

FRIENDSHIP problems are something you cannot rrun away from. I have mended one but another has risen. Just let the thing go and forget about it. Maybe it is easy for me to do that but not for the other party. Nevermind though.Just let it be.

I at last got to taste malaysia food again after a long time.So nice! Got to go now. Still have English class tomorrow.

I copied Meila's also (with some changes)

My top ten most favourite foods

Japanese food
Western food

some malaysian(ipoh) food

macdonald's fries

very cold desserton a hot day

Pizza

Fruits(not all)

home-cooked food

Bread (some only)

Cake (esp. my mum's cheesecake)

Ten things I love doing
Sleeping
Watching movies and dramas(esp.hongkong)
Teasing and irritating people-sometimes
Eating
Hanging out with my friends :)(nowadays)

Solving puzzles(rubic cube?)
playing games

reading books
going on outdoor activities

Five things I love doing when I'm EMO

Staring at the surroundings

Making a long face

think back what i have done

Be quiet

Draw cubes or any 2D or 3D shapes on anywhere

Five things I love doing when I'm HAPPY

Laughing

Smiling

Try to not show it although it is always seen

grin

love myself and the whole world

Ten things I wish to happen

Get all distinctions for O level

Get a scholarship and fly to some great place to study what i want

be successful in life
To be a pilot

Go around the world
Can understand everything people are talking about

My family stay healthy

Be with somebody I love

have the gift of wisdom

Make people around me like me

Ten ridiculous things I wish to do before I die

Travel around the world by SIA (first class)

Invent something

advise people on how to live life the fullest

Buy anything i like when i step into a shop

get into the ladies squad of chelsea football club

Take a picture with a famous football player

Visit Stamford bridge(chelsea football club stadium)

go on the world's tallest building

Build my own house and have party everyday without working

To do something great so that my name will be recalled in history


Top ten most addicted song
none

I am back

The End-Year exams has just ended.Yay!!I have been waiting for this day. I have spent a lot of time on this whole month studying.I really hope the results are not too bad. But i already know some are going to be very bad.Like my A.Math. Did i study as hard as the other subjects for this subject? Or is it that i do not have enough practise?I really have to do something about it during the coming holidays.

I am also very happy today for my Chemistry paper.I could do all the chemical calculation questions on the paper. I have never done that before.I thought that i would have to give up trying to do it. But i had to do it knowing that it would cost at least 10 marks in the paper.All thanks to the extra remedial lesson yesterday. He thought me how to do them step-by-step.Looks like the quote practise makes perfect really works.But i am not sure whether i will get it correct or not.

Anyway all's over now.I will just have to wait for the results.It will not be too long.School ends on the 24 October.After a few days of recovery, I will have to get back to the books.

Holidays are over.Was it even one?

Finally the holidays are over.Now i have to go back to sch earlier.The only difference during the holidays was going to school later.Anyway, here are a few activities to go through:

Councillor camp:
it was so fun!sad that many people never go.They missed out on so many things.Heard thia song during camp.Really nice song.(unbreakable ,westlife)

BBQ:
I had BBQ at my cousin's house.It was ok.Food was nice.

Homework:
I have almost finished my work except heymath,chem.Counted not bad already.

Well, sch for term 4 is starting tomorrow.I really hope to acheive something this year.help me!!Got to really study hard for end-year.
Bye!

Holidays? Never!!!

I was so happy thinking that the 1 week of the september holidays i could finally have some rest after a long long time.The whole term 3 was so tiring and exhausting.i practically did not have enough rest as usual for the whole term.But, teachers had to start thinking about homework and assignments.Never mind that.They also wanted extra classes.Just imagine for each science takes two days.luckily i only take Physics and Chemistry.Other than extra classes, homework,also got councillor camp.Councillor camp=planning.
I just feel like screaming now.My timetable:
sat:Chemistry class
sun:church
mon:chemistry class
tue:camp planning
wed:physics class
thurs:physics class
fri:camp
sat:camp
sun:My only rest day so far.But still have to surely catch up on homework and get ready for sch the next day.

When can i ever get some rest??Just when i thought something has been done, another thing knocks at my doorstep.I cannot just ignore those knockings. If it accumulates, the whole door will explode.
I am sure i am not the only one's who are feeling like this.My other classmates will also surely feel the same way.Some may even have more than what i have.But, this is all i can carry now.Do NOT add to it!!

I also just received my results for term3.Do not want to comment about it.I just am trying to pray and hope that everything will nicely be in place.

BPL 08/09 is back!!

Yay!! The Barclays premier league season 08/09 is back again.The webpage can be found in my links. Go and check it out . Chelsea must do their best this time.My main rival: Manchester United.They won the title last season because of goal difference only wat.This time, Chelsea is going to have it.They signed many new players like Deco, Robinho also coming.
Enough about soccer........

This week,
Many things happened.

No. of test i took this week: 4 or 5 (cannot remember)
My worst day of the week: Wednesday
My best day of the week: Friday
My worst recess: On Wednesday

Let me elaborate now.I took A.Math,Malay, Geog , English test this week.Anymore??I cannot remember. The best thing is that i took 3 test in one day on thurs. The first three test mentioned. It was really very tiring.But it was an interesting experience.My brain never got so saturated before.
Well, Wednesday was my worse day cause many terrible things happened.In the morning, Mr.Hoe told me my chemistry test results.It was ........................... . I don't want to type it out.Person reading this should know what i am talking about.It was somemore my English test right after that.I felt so miserable.He said that i am not taking my work seriously and not studying.I was so surprised at what he said. The days before the chemistry test i was studying it like crazy.and he can say i never study.I was so sad and kept remembering wat he said.
This day was also my worst recess cause i found people smoking during duty.Call teacher also they never pick up their phone.In the end have to go to staffrm to find them.When the teacher reach the place, they already run away.Then after that was VE. Mr Shashi was complaining so much about the students in this sch of mine.They are horrible.

Now, Friday is the best day cause it was fun and i got many shocking findings.In the morning first period, was SS. Our test was using the CPS.I got the second.Meila was the first.Yay!! This shows that Singaporeans do not really know their country well.The second last period was Math.I got back my A.Math test results.I got 27/30.Finally, I passed an A.Math test this term.Then, he showed us our CA results for A.Math. I got A1 for it!I was so surprised cause i have been failing all the test except this one.In the afternoon, got NPCC. It was one of the funnest trainings i have ever attended.Finally, I am a cadet leader now. After so many years.(actually only 2 and 1/2 yrs)Learnt many new drills.So fun.The CI said that it was one of the most not serious 2nd class drill test he have ever conducted.We were laughing so much .

Enough for now.Bye.

Olympics week..........musical also

This week is a rather fun and tiring one.The musical was ok.They made many last minute rehearsals.It was in Singapore Polytechnic.Ended very late on friday.Only got home at 11.15 i think.
Anyway,I only think about the olympics now.Watching the table tennis finals .Singapore vs China.China just won the first match.China, give the gold to Singapore la.U all already got so many.Singapore don't even have a single medal lor.

Later got badminton men's final.This time Malaysia vs China.World no. 1 and 2 playing against each other.Hope malaysia win!!

Nothing more to write.Going to watch my match........

School National Day(Singapore)

Today's the school national day.I was running around the whole morning cause i was in-charge of the festival of sports.All the games and everything i had to be in charge of.Just after the captain's ball game everyone was looking for me.i dunno why.

Anyway, my class lost in today's game the finals after winning 1D and 2B.The finals today was with 3B.I somehow feel that we did not play as well as yesterday.That's why we lost.Nevermind. At least we got silver,second place.So far,this year i got a trophy for basketball and a medal for today.

today also got teachers vs students soccer and captain's ball.mr.shashi's not too bad in marking in soccer.and also mr.wee's penalty was not bad.Landed on the top left hand corner of the net.Discovered some interesting things today.
ms tan and mrs.chui also came back today.Saw them and said hi!!

Today's not bad.I also learned many things that organising something is not easy and takes time.you also need a plan of what to do and ensures that everyone do their part.I am very happy that today's event is a success.after a week of planning.

So what's next for me???

Work again......

It's another week.I've not been writing for quite a few days.I have really been really busy.So many things have happened.Like AMC, the heritage race, all the tests that i mentioned in my previous posts, maths presentation.However, many things are still waiting for me like FAST tests and national day,after that,teacher's day.I am very happy i never get in NDP or i surely not have time to do my other things......I've got an interclass captain's ball competition coming up too.First match on wednesday.Wish me and my class luck!I also have to arrange to see who plays first .A difficult choice to make.I cannot put everyone to play for the full game..So sorry if i never put you for the full match.

The heritage race on last saturday was fun and at the same time tiring.My group(me,sue ann,meila) practically ran around the CBD area.At least not the whole Singapore.First,Sultan mosque.Then,St.Joseph church.After that,Thian Hock Keng temple. Last,some indian temple.

Next,AMC.I really prefer AIC than AMC now.AIC is more of common sense but AMC is more of mathematical calculations.I really guessed half of the paper.Haha.....

The last thing i want to talk about is my group's math presentation.It was ok la.Not too bad.At first,i was really very very nervous.But after i opened my mouth and started talking,it was not so bad.Anyway,the results were out today.My group was the second highest.Yay!!!Not so much after all the work i have put in.Mr Wee said that my group was the most prepared one among all.I was thinking,"Really....meh??"I thought we were like quite last minute.78.13 i think.At least A1.Highest was Hee Yean's group 80.dunno wat.Did not see their presentation so i dunno how they presented also.Thanks to everyone in my group!!

Hope to have a nice week ahead..Got to go now to have my dinner.

Another crazy week

I am back from camp and first day of the week in sch.I was so so tired.Now also.Never go for National Day Parade rehearsal.Anyways,i have already told Mr.Tan that i don't want to get in.Why??Cause i am very super stressed now.About wat?Sch work,councillor programmes,tuition, many more la.Just sch work i got so much to do la.Math presentation,malay homework,a.math homework,study chem,phy,AMC,SS Fast......the lists goes on.....The sch cultural race just ended today.I can see that the students who took part had fun.Good la....Thank you to those who helped.Clap....clap.Today also my turn for pledge taking. I cannot believe that i was so nervous.

Anyways, tomorrow is my math group's turn to present our song.Sine and Cosine rule.I think i will be much more nervous than i am today.Principal,Mdm Fatimah and Mrs.Liang inside leh...I think i will faint.Good luck to me and my group.

The parish youth church camp was ok only.We had to sleep in tents instead of domitories la.So sick.Almost everyone cannot sleep.Of course i slept.I was damn tired.Those people who have read my blog for many times must have found many of this word around"tired".and "busy"
I am really those words now.

Seo ran just left the sch last thursday.Good luck to her in anything she does.She is planning to go back to Korea to study.Had a class "party" with her.
Got to go now.Have to print out the handouts for tomorrow's presentation.Damn it!! the lift is not working=have to climb up 4 storeys.

A hectic week

Finally another week passed.There was 5 test altogether i took this week.FAST test(Physics and Chemistry),Social Studies,E.math,Geog.It was an average of a test per day.Yesterday was NPCC Service Day.We went out to the vicinity around Chestnut Drive to spread the message about crime prevention.My legs was like "broken" by the time i got home.I felt so tired.TGIF!!Just did finish my math presentation on sine cosine rule.Hope that it will be a success!Just did an IQ test too. I scored 128.You can also do it on www.free-iqtest.net/
It was really a tiring week but an interesting one too.I can't seem to get the hang of chemical calculations.I don't know why.
Another thing ,ms tan's leaving. So sad.She's like one of the best PE teachers.Good luck in anything she does.
And also when we were decorating the class on wednesday,some people wrote some quotes on the whiteboard for our class motto.Some were really very interesting.like "what we can do you cannot do,in short, we are just better than you.""If there is trouble,3E1 will make it double"
My class is going to give out the different kinds of food from the different racial groups on monday for racial harmony day.Have to wear traditional attire.What the ......
Anyway, I am going for church youth parish camp at changi next saturday til sunday.I will be more tiring than this week !I am going to look like a dead goose when i return to school on monday.

Now or Never HSM3 lyrics

This is the new High School Musical 3 song lyrics:Now or Never.It's so nice.The video can be seen at the right hand side of my blog.

Sixteen, sixteen minutes left
better get it done!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
get ready, game on!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen minutes left
running out of time!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
it’s on the line!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen minutes left
better get it done!
Sixteen, sixteen
sixteen more minutes
’til we’re number one!

(Let’s go team!)

Gotta get it together!
Yeah, pull up and shoot! Score!
Are you ready? Are you with me?

TEAM! TEAM! TEAM! YEAH!
Shake’em with the crossover? (Wild Cats)
Tell me what are we here for? (To Win)
’cause we Know we’re the best team!
(Come on boys! Come on boys! Come on!)

The way we play tonight
is what we leave behind! (That’s right)
It all comes down to right now
it’s up to us! (Let’s go!)

So what we’re gonna be? (Gonna be)
T-E-A-M Team!
Gotta Work it out
Turning on (Come on)

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

W-I-L-D (Out of Bounds)
Wildcats!
You know! Come on!
W-I-L-D
Wildcats!
Come on! Come on!
West High Knights, hey
Yeah, we’re doing it right? (OH YEAH)
W-I-L-D
Wildcats!
It’s now the time!

Gotta get inside, downlow
In the pain now shoot! Score! (Defence!)
We gotta work it together
Gimme the ball! (3x)

Fastbreak! (Keep the ball in control)
Let it fly from downtown (Three! Four!)
Show’em we can do it better! (No way! Go go go!)
(Come on boys! Wildcats!)

The way we play tonight
is what we leave behind! (That’s right)
It all comes down to right now
it’s up to us! (Let’s go!)

So what we’re gonna be? (Gonna be)
T-E-A-M Team!
Gotta Work it out
Turning on (Come on)

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

Right now I can hardly breath!
Oooh, you can do it just know that I believe!
And that’s all I really need!
Then come on!
Make me strong!
It’s time to turn it up, game on!

Wildcats! Go tear it up!
Go Wildcats! We’re number one!
Hey Wildcats, We’re the champions!
Go! (5x) Oh Team! Oh!
West High Knights, hey
Yeah, we’re putting up a fight! (wildcats)
We’ll never quit it, gonna win it!
Let me hear you say
HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY

This is the last time
to get it right!
This is the last chance
to make it or not!

We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)

Work together!

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

Another week ahead

I got a new watch finally after almost 5 years with that old and simple watch.Just finish my homework.But not all.Things just seem to get harder and more difficult and never easier.Maybe easier to fail perhaps.Haha.Nothing much happened this week actually.
I went to church and the father was talking about which kind of listener are you?Choose....
1st: the never-listener(someone who thinks he is too smart and never bothers to listen to anyone or anything)
2nd: the selective listener(someone who just picks up the important points that he feels is worth taking it back)
3rd: the busy listener(someone who is too busy to listen to anything and never have time to listen)
4th: the listener(someone who listens to everyone and takes whatever he listens into consideration)
so who are u?
Actually listening and hearing have a very big difference.

I heard this song today and felt that it was very meaningful.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=lX-lafNe3cc

going to sleep now.All geared up for a new week ahead!

so close..... yet so far......

One of my primary school friend asked me one day after looking at my msn name."So close yet so far" what does it mean?She kept asking me and i could not tell her an answer.Anyway, after much thinking, i realised that many things in this world are linked to this phrase.
Everytime when i watch a movie or a drama serial, the two person will be very close to each other but they just don't see each other.They can be just side-by-side for all u know and a wall is just the thing that separates both of them.
Or to apply it to our daily life, when we get our exam results and realised that we could have passed by just half a mark or you could have scored full marks for the paper when you wrote a wrong answer and lost 2 marks.You could have passed or scored full,but the small little barrier is what you have to overcome.This is exactly what happened this week in my life.i could have scored full marks for my math test when i lost two marks although i knew the answer.Could have been 25/25 when i got 23/25.
A saying: Sometimes what is yours have to be yours,and what is not yours no matter how hard you try it will never be.
The opposite: Nothing is impossible.
Which one to believe?Choose one for yourself.
I just feel that there is a barrier there preventing us from being close to esch other.We were very close friends last time.However, i feel that nowadays we just talk.It's not the old "us".I feel uncomfortable talking to u all.It's like i cannot trust you anymore.Why is this happening?Looks like i have found a better place to be in.