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The element of failure is what pulls back someone from acheiving his/her goal.That's what is happening to me now.The choice of going to a Junior College(JC) or Polytechnic. Since the beginning of this sec4 year, many people have been asking me this question. I really did not know how to answer it.When a teacher ask me, I will just simply pick either one without really considering them.Just to show that i have a sense of direction.

A few months later, my answer was, "I don't know"

Last Tue, i made a decision.
I realise that i wanted to go to JC but there was this element of worry of failure that keeps telling me,

"If cannot,.......".

So, if cannot the other choice was the polytechnic.That's why I have been holding back.It's the worry of "what if this happens or what if that happens or what if none happens"

The "what if" part comes bacause we are worried we might not be able to acheive our target.If we have that part and we do not acheive our target, we will not feel so disheartened.Through this, we are trying to escape one thing, the impact of failure.But if we do not make a goal, we will just keep driving in any direction and not get where we want to be.or at worst,lost.

At last,the decision is made........

134 days

Yes! It's ONLY 134 more days to O-levels. Don't think that i have been counting it for months. It's just that i just felt we ought to face up to reality and be aware how scary it is.I managed to find a place to write the days on and it's erasable.So i had the experience of erasing and writing again as each day passes. It's stressful and worrying. Try it if u do not believe me.(Caution: May cause heart-attack)

2 weeks of the June holidays have passed.It also meant our HOPE programme is over. Now i understand why the sch named it HOPE. We(or maybe at least I) desperately needed some hope. Without hope, i think i will fall.

50% of 2009 is GONE

Like what i had said in my previous posts, the past few weeks were very busy weeks.Many big events just passed.

My Student Council Investiture was last Thursday.We had many rehearsals and meetings to prepare for this day.I am happy that it all went smoothly. This day also marks my last day as an active Vice-President of SC. It's certainly sad leaving all of them but i can't stay forever. Someone else got to take over and move on to the next level.Good Luck to S6 now known as C6 when they take over the 5th council.The 5th council is now known as R7(Retired 7)!

2 days after the investiture was my confirmation.It was great. I was actually nervous at first but when i was standing in front of the bishop, it all happened so fast. I am now filled with the Holy Spirit!After that was dinner at my house. My whole extended family came.Had a great dinner:)

2 days after my confirmation is my Malay O-levels Exams. which is today........It was fine for me but had some shocking experiences. I actually managed to finish my karangan P1 1/2h before the actual ending time. I have no idea how i did it but it just happened. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I think i will only know it when the results come out in August. May whoever that's marking my paper be merciful!

Lastly, CHELSEA won the FA cup!Congrats to them especially to Lampard who scored the winning goal.Finally a cup after 2 yrs.

I am very happy with the experience i have gained from the first 50% of my life in 2009. Let's continue to persevere on with the remaining 50%!