Right, this is my last post before my o-levels. i have not been blogging for the past 2-3 months. i think you should know the reason why...
Prelim 1 just ended. And got back the results. Not too bad, at least better than mid-yr.Prelim 2 will be starting this coming Thursday.
many things happened during the past months. happy and sad.... maybe will write about these things nxt time. i am just writing this post to have a significance as a last pose before o-levels.so, see you after 13 Nov(my last paper)
anyway, maybe i might post again just one last time during the exam period.to write about how i feel when my birthday is on an exam day!! or maybe i might not. I'll see when the day comes soon.Do wish me luck!!
Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims :)
Monday, September 21, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
cannotmakeit.com
The element of failure is what pulls back someone from acheiving his/her goal.That's what is happening to me now.The choice of going to a Junior College(JC) or Polytechnic. Since the beginning of this sec4 year, many people have been asking me this question. I really did not know how to answer it.When a teacher ask me, I will just simply pick either one without really considering them.Just to show that i have a sense of direction.
A few months later, my answer was, "I don't know"
Last Tue, i made a decision.
I realise that i wanted to go to JC but there was this element of worry of failure that keeps telling me,
"If cannot,.......".
So, if cannot the other choice was the polytechnic.That's why I have been holding back.It's the worry of "what if this happens or what if that happens or what if none happens"
The "what if" part comes bacause we are worried we might not be able to acheive our target.If we have that part and we do not acheive our target, we will not feel so disheartened.Through this, we are trying to escape one thing, the impact of failure.But if we do not make a goal, we will just keep driving in any direction and not get where we want to be.or at worst,lost.
At last,the decision is made........
A few months later, my answer was, "I don't know"
Last Tue, i made a decision.
I realise that i wanted to go to JC but there was this element of worry of failure that keeps telling me,
"If cannot,.......".
So, if cannot the other choice was the polytechnic.That's why I have been holding back.It's the worry of "what if this happens or what if that happens or what if none happens"
The "what if" part comes bacause we are worried we might not be able to acheive our target.If we have that part and we do not acheive our target, we will not feel so disheartened.Through this, we are trying to escape one thing, the impact of failure.But if we do not make a goal, we will just keep driving in any direction and not get where we want to be.or at worst,lost.
At last,the decision is made........
134 days
Yes! It's ONLY 134 more days to O-levels. Don't think that i have been counting it for months. It's just that i just felt we ought to face up to reality and be aware how scary it is.I managed to find a place to write the days on and it's erasable.So i had the experience of erasing and writing again as each day passes. It's stressful and worrying. Try it if u do not believe me.(Caution: May cause heart-attack)
2 weeks of the June holidays have passed.It also meant our HOPE programme is over. Now i understand why the sch named it HOPE. We(or maybe at least I) desperately needed some hope. Without hope, i think i will fall.
2 weeks of the June holidays have passed.It also meant our HOPE programme is over. Now i understand why the sch named it HOPE. We(or maybe at least I) desperately needed some hope. Without hope, i think i will fall.
Monday, June 1, 2009
50% of 2009 is GONE
Like what i had said in my previous posts, the past few weeks were very busy weeks.Many big events just passed.
My Student Council Investiture was last Thursday.We had many rehearsals and meetings to prepare for this day.I am happy that it all went smoothly. This day also marks my last day as an active Vice-President of SC. It's certainly sad leaving all of them but i can't stay forever. Someone else got to take over and move on to the next level.Good Luck to S6 now known as C6 when they take over the 5th council.The 5th council is now known as R7(Retired 7)!
2 days after the investiture was my confirmation.It was great. I was actually nervous at first but when i was standing in front of the bishop, it all happened so fast. I am now filled with the Holy Spirit!After that was dinner at my house. My whole extended family came.Had a great dinner:)
2 days after my confirmation is my Malay O-levels Exams. which is today........It was fine for me but had some shocking experiences. I actually managed to finish my karangan P1 1/2h before the actual ending time. I have no idea how i did it but it just happened. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I think i will only know it when the results come out in August. May whoever that's marking my paper be merciful!
Lastly, CHELSEA won the FA cup!Congrats to them especially to Lampard who scored the winning goal.Finally a cup after 2 yrs.
I am very happy with the experience i have gained from the first 50% of my life in 2009. Let's continue to persevere on with the remaining 50%!
My Student Council Investiture was last Thursday.We had many rehearsals and meetings to prepare for this day.I am happy that it all went smoothly. This day also marks my last day as an active Vice-President of SC. It's certainly sad leaving all of them but i can't stay forever. Someone else got to take over and move on to the next level.Good Luck to S6 now known as C6 when they take over the 5th council.The 5th council is now known as R7(Retired 7)!
2 days after the investiture was my confirmation.It was great. I was actually nervous at first but when i was standing in front of the bishop, it all happened so fast. I am now filled with the Holy Spirit!After that was dinner at my house. My whole extended family came.Had a great dinner:)
2 days after my confirmation is my Malay O-levels Exams. which is today........It was fine for me but had some shocking experiences. I actually managed to finish my karangan P1 1/2h before the actual ending time. I have no idea how i did it but it just happened. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I think i will only know it when the results come out in August. May whoever that's marking my paper be merciful!
Lastly, CHELSEA won the FA cup!Congrats to them especially to Lampard who scored the winning goal.Finally a cup after 2 yrs.
I am very happy with the experience i have gained from the first 50% of my life in 2009. Let's continue to persevere on with the remaining 50%!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
dying day
Yes, it's dying day today like what my sis wrote in her blog. Receiving our MYE results. I received my :
E.M(P1/P2),
A.M(P1),
Phy,
Chem,Comb.humans(Geog,SS),
Malay.
Not to say i did very super badly. It's just that i feel i am slipping further and further away frm my usual grades like each test i do. Maybe my expectations for myself are too high, but how can i accept that as a reason when my other classmates can do better than me? I cannot let myself just die down in this battlefield esp. when the main war haven't even started. Sometimes I think to myself, will I really make it if i continue working hard?But i cannot stop working hard. Not when I have to give advice to my juniors.
The previous para might have given u the thought that i did horribly. I passed everything so far. Lowest grade B4 i think. Actually expected those marks after i ended the papers or maybe worse.But i am sure i can do much better if i push myself.Wish me luck for my other papers on Mon.
Enough abt exams and results, i went bowling yesterday with some ppl. It was fun.Luckily managed to score some points.Although most of it went to the gutter. It was my first time so i think i did ok.
I will be going to receive my Overall All-Rounders Award this evening at Yio Chu Kang. At least something for me to be glad abt after the whole day of looking at my results.
Got to go now.
Signing out,
Vannessa:)
E.M(P1/P2),
A.M(P1),
Phy,
Chem,Comb.humans(Geog,SS),
Malay.
Not to say i did very super badly. It's just that i feel i am slipping further and further away frm my usual grades like each test i do. Maybe my expectations for myself are too high, but how can i accept that as a reason when my other classmates can do better than me? I cannot let myself just die down in this battlefield esp. when the main war haven't even started. Sometimes I think to myself, will I really make it if i continue working hard?But i cannot stop working hard. Not when I have to give advice to my juniors.
The previous para might have given u the thought that i did horribly. I passed everything so far. Lowest grade B4 i think. Actually expected those marks after i ended the papers or maybe worse.But i am sure i can do much better if i push myself.Wish me luck for my other papers on Mon.
Enough abt exams and results, i went bowling yesterday with some ppl. It was fun.Luckily managed to score some points.Although most of it went to the gutter. It was my first time so i think i did ok.
I will be going to receive my Overall All-Rounders Award this evening at Yio Chu Kang. At least something for me to be glad abt after the whole day of looking at my results.
Got to go now.
Signing out,
Vannessa:)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
last week
Having some "free time' now to update my blog. Thanks to Meila for re-reminding me.
Cross-country was last week. I got the 49th position.I ran as fast as i could at the finishing point and managed to cut some 6people.That's my strategy i guess.
anyway, the main mid-yr exams are starting next week and i have planned out what to study on the different days. Hope that i can follow it.
I am quite worried for some subjects actually. The marks that i get isn't very satisfying in those tests.The days are getting nearer.Y am i not feeling anything??
Last Wed, I had a chat with my mentor.I had a weird feeling and did not know what to answer when he asked me "What do u think u will be 5 years down the road?"We calculated and i realised that 5 yrs down the road, i will be 21yrs.It's so scary.Those 5 yrs will pass very fast.5 yrs back, i was in primary 5. It did not take long for me to reach where i am now.
After a long pause, he asked me questions instead of me giving him a whole big chuck of answers.It all adds up to I will still be living with my family, hope to learn how to fly, do sth i engineering, be with my 3 wonderful friends.it seems so nice to think about it. But imagine all the work i will have to do before i reach that level.
Got to go now. It's 11pm. Cannot stay too late.The next post will be after my exams. i hope i will not be too busy.Work hard everyone!Good luck to all taking exams(esp.ASSES).
Cross-country was last week. I got the 49th position.I ran as fast as i could at the finishing point and managed to cut some 6people.That's my strategy i guess.
anyway, the main mid-yr exams are starting next week and i have planned out what to study on the different days. Hope that i can follow it.
I am quite worried for some subjects actually. The marks that i get isn't very satisfying in those tests.The days are getting nearer.Y am i not feeling anything??
Last Wed, I had a chat with my mentor.I had a weird feeling and did not know what to answer when he asked me "What do u think u will be 5 years down the road?"We calculated and i realised that 5 yrs down the road, i will be 21yrs.It's so scary.Those 5 yrs will pass very fast.5 yrs back, i was in primary 5. It did not take long for me to reach where i am now.
After a long pause, he asked me questions instead of me giving him a whole big chuck of answers.It all adds up to I will still be living with my family, hope to learn how to fly, do sth i engineering, be with my 3 wonderful friends.it seems so nice to think about it. But imagine all the work i will have to do before i reach that level.
Got to go now. It's 11pm. Cannot stay too late.The next post will be after my exams. i hope i will not be too busy.Work hard everyone!Good luck to all taking exams(esp.ASSES).
Saturday, April 11, 2009
He is risen
"He is risen, Alleluia!"
After 40 days, the word is back again.Just attended an Easter Vigil mass yesterday. It was the longest mass i have ever been to. 3hrs+. Anyway, i am very happy i managed to attend it. It was my first time ever going for this Easter Vigil. It was so nice and solemn. The atmosphere of happiness and prayer was all present.
I saw people got baptised and confirmed too. They were so happy. It must be a very fulfilling experience. I will get a feel of it too soon.Confirmation is on 30 May!
After busy in church for the past week, I guess next will be in school. The remaining of Apr and May will make up parts of the most important days in my secondary school life. With my last CDSS speech day, presenting the SC state-of-the-union, mid-yr exams, SC investiture, choosing a teacher-mentor.I guess more will come out.
Happy Easter to all!
After 40 days, the word is back again.Just attended an Easter Vigil mass yesterday. It was the longest mass i have ever been to. 3hrs+. Anyway, i am very happy i managed to attend it. It was my first time ever going for this Easter Vigil. It was so nice and solemn. The atmosphere of happiness and prayer was all present.
I saw people got baptised and confirmed too. They were so happy. It must be a very fulfilling experience. I will get a feel of it too soon.Confirmation is on 30 May!
After busy in church for the past week, I guess next will be in school. The remaining of Apr and May will make up parts of the most important days in my secondary school life. With my last CDSS speech day, presenting the SC state-of-the-union, mid-yr exams, SC investiture, choosing a teacher-mentor.I guess more will come out.
Happy Easter to all!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Term 1 is over!!
The first 10 weeks of my life in 2009 is filled with so many things that i have no one word to describe it. It's all filled with work+fun+excitement+challenges+busy+madness+fustration+satisfaction=?
Just had a 'survivor'camp a few days ago.It was also within these 10 weeks that i had the latest meeting since i was born.Until 9.07pm.Now, just thinking about the pile of homewrk will make me sick. i had done some but it seems a never ending process.I wonder what's holidays nowadays. Ask any student and u won't hear the word REST.Even Mr shashi ask us to have a break. It will be good if i could fnd time.
I can't believe O-levels is like getting nearer day by day.I can't even feel anything now. Maybe i am numbed by all the many daily things that i have to do already.Anyway, good luck to all that are in the same boat as me.Esp. the asses.
Also did a Myer-Briggs Type Indicator test during the camp. It's like some personality test. I got INTJ. Which stands for Introversion, Intuition,Thinking,Judgemental.Can't believe i got the same as ********.Maybe i have been working too much with *******.That's why.
Anyway, got to go and sleep now.Have to recharge myself for 7 hours of Physics tmr.
Just had a 'survivor'camp a few days ago.It was also within these 10 weeks that i had the latest meeting since i was born.Until 9.07pm.Now, just thinking about the pile of homewrk will make me sick. i had done some but it seems a never ending process.I wonder what's holidays nowadays. Ask any student and u won't hear the word REST.Even Mr shashi ask us to have a break. It will be good if i could fnd time.
I can't believe O-levels is like getting nearer day by day.I can't even feel anything now. Maybe i am numbed by all the many daily things that i have to do already.Anyway, good luck to all that are in the same boat as me.Esp. the asses.
Also did a Myer-Briggs Type Indicator test during the camp. It's like some personality test. I got INTJ. Which stands for Introversion, Intuition,Thinking,Judgemental.Can't believe i got the same as ********.Maybe i have been working too much with *******.That's why.
Anyway, got to go and sleep now.Have to recharge myself for 7 hours of Physics tmr.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
why??what??
I have been thinking over this question since last week. What is the purpose of my life? Why am I brought here? What am I supposed to acheive?
For many things in life that we do, we usually look for a purpose or an objective in doing so or even ask ourselves why am i doing it?Like even in writing composition we need a purpose, in solving a math problem we need to know what we have to acheive at the end of it .
Actually i haven't really been thinking for the whole week about this question. Just remembered this when i was quietly sitting in church waiting for mass to start. and also when someone spoke about purpose today again.
It might be a short, 7 word question. and might seem easy to answer at first. but after thinking for a few seconds you might start getting puzzled. that's what happened to me.
This question really needs a lot of reflection and looking back at what we have done. and also what we are going to do.
I am still thinking about this one. maybe will let you know when i've found the answer
For many things in life that we do, we usually look for a purpose or an objective in doing so or even ask ourselves why am i doing it?Like even in writing composition we need a purpose, in solving a math problem we need to know what we have to acheive at the end of it .
Actually i haven't really been thinking for the whole week about this question. Just remembered this when i was quietly sitting in church waiting for mass to start. and also when someone spoke about purpose today again.
It might be a short, 7 word question. and might seem easy to answer at first. but after thinking for a few seconds you might start getting puzzled. that's what happened to me.
This question really needs a lot of reflection and looking back at what we have done. and also what we are going to do.
I am still thinking about this one. maybe will let you know when i've found the answer
Saturday, January 24, 2009
maddening place i am in
3 weeks of sch has already passed. So many things have happened. Sometimes, i don't even realise that it's happening and i just go through it.or maybe i don't even have the time to think through.
another thing, i am in potters&scribe now. Actually i had to sign up for one as my pastoral attachment(PA) so that i can fulfill the criteria to be confirmed in may. Looks like if u take a copy of the tomorrow newspaper, my name may be there.Haha.The preparatory exams were so horrible.I had exams like the whole week. after one paper had ended, you will have to start thinking about the next. i think that was the most taxing week so far.
Like what i have mentioned earlier, my class is going through some disease and it's spreading fast. A cure is needed to be found fast or the whole class will get killed . I have no idea why just choosing a chairperson and a vice chair is so difficult thing to do. Actually it's not difficult but some people just like creating a havoc out of nothing.Why can't they convert their energy into doing something more useful for the class like decorating the noticeboard instead of causing trouble.
The Happiest Event Award goes to ........
I am officially promoted to vice-president of the student council now. I never expected this to happen but it just did. When mr wee broke the news to me on a saturday before chem class, i did not know what to say. i was just smiling there. maybe that's who i am, i do not show much emotions in everything that i do. The whole student council also finally received their new councillor badges. We recited the pledge again and received the badge.That was also when the teacher announce that i was vice.
lastly, the first day of chinese new year is today. Went to church in the morning and went to cousin's house for lunch after that. Food was delicious.For reunion dinner, we had a 8 course dinner at home with menu specially made.
nite!
Vannessa
- sec1 orientation
- cca day
- i am in potters&scribe now (a church ministry)
- preparatory exams
- applying the new structure of the student council we discussed about during the holidays
- my class that is going through like some disease
- something to be excited about,FINALLY......
- chinese new year
another thing, i am in potters&scribe now. Actually i had to sign up for one as my pastoral attachment(PA) so that i can fulfill the criteria to be confirmed in may. Looks like if u take a copy of the tomorrow newspaper, my name may be there.Haha.The preparatory exams were so horrible.I had exams like the whole week. after one paper had ended, you will have to start thinking about the next. i think that was the most taxing week so far.
Like what i have mentioned earlier, my class is going through some disease and it's spreading fast. A cure is needed to be found fast or the whole class will get killed . I have no idea why just choosing a chairperson and a vice chair is so difficult thing to do. Actually it's not difficult but some people just like creating a havoc out of nothing.Why can't they convert their energy into doing something more useful for the class like decorating the noticeboard instead of causing trouble.
The Happiest Event Award goes to ........
I am officially promoted to vice-president of the student council now. I never expected this to happen but it just did. When mr wee broke the news to me on a saturday before chem class, i did not know what to say. i was just smiling there. maybe that's who i am, i do not show much emotions in everything that i do. The whole student council also finally received their new councillor badges. We recited the pledge again and received the badge.That was also when the teacher announce that i was vice.
lastly, the first day of chinese new year is today. Went to church in the morning and went to cousin's house for lunch after that. Food was delicious.For reunion dinner, we had a 8 course dinner at home with menu specially made.
nite!
Vannessa
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Good Bye 2008, Welcome 2009!
Wow, 2008 has passed and 2009 is here. 2008 has been a great year for me but i am not sure for the rest. i hope and pray that 2009 will be as good or maybe better. But many people say that 2009 will be a worse year compared to 2008. all the recessions. today's the start of 2009,010109,haha. and tomorrow's the start of sch. I think i will not have much time anymore when sch starts do update my blog. Anyway, i am going to post some pics from my birthday. I know that my birthday was like so long time ago but it doesn't matter.
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