Monday, September 21, 2009

last post

Right, this is my last post before my o-levels. i have not been blogging for the past 2-3 months. i think you should know the reason why...

Prelim 1 just ended. And got back the results. Not too bad, at least better than mid-yr.Prelim 2 will be starting this coming Thursday.

many things happened during the past months. happy and sad.... maybe will write about these things nxt time. i am just writing this post to have a significance as a last pose before o-levels.so, see you after 13 Nov(my last paper)

anyway, maybe i might post again just one last time during the exam period.to write about how i feel when my birthday is on an exam day!! or maybe i might not. I'll see when the day comes soon.Do wish me luck!!

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims :)

Sunday, June 14, 2009

cannotmakeit.com

The element of failure is what pulls back someone from acheiving his/her goal.That's what is happening to me now.The choice of going to a Junior College(JC) or Polytechnic. Since the beginning of this sec4 year, many people have been asking me this question. I really did not know how to answer it.When a teacher ask me, I will just simply pick either one without really considering them.Just to show that i have a sense of direction.

A few months later, my answer was, "I don't know"

Last Tue, i made a decision.
I realise that i wanted to go to JC but there was this element of worry of failure that keeps telling me,

"If cannot,.......".

So, if cannot the other choice was the polytechnic.That's why I have been holding back.It's the worry of "what if this happens or what if that happens or what if none happens"

The "what if" part comes bacause we are worried we might not be able to acheive our target.If we have that part and we do not acheive our target, we will not feel so disheartened.Through this, we are trying to escape one thing, the impact of failure.But if we do not make a goal, we will just keep driving in any direction and not get where we want to be.or at worst,lost.

At last,the decision is made........

134 days

Yes! It's ONLY 134 more days to O-levels. Don't think that i have been counting it for months. It's just that i just felt we ought to face up to reality and be aware how scary it is.I managed to find a place to write the days on and it's erasable.So i had the experience of erasing and writing again as each day passes. It's stressful and worrying. Try it if u do not believe me.(Caution: May cause heart-attack)

2 weeks of the June holidays have passed.It also meant our HOPE programme is over. Now i understand why the sch named it HOPE. We(or maybe at least I) desperately needed some hope. Without hope, i think i will fall.

Monday, June 1, 2009

50% of 2009 is GONE

Like what i had said in my previous posts, the past few weeks were very busy weeks.Many big events just passed.

My Student Council Investiture was last Thursday.We had many rehearsals and meetings to prepare for this day.I am happy that it all went smoothly. This day also marks my last day as an active Vice-President of SC. It's certainly sad leaving all of them but i can't stay forever. Someone else got to take over and move on to the next level.Good Luck to S6 now known as C6 when they take over the 5th council.The 5th council is now known as R7(Retired 7)!

2 days after the investiture was my confirmation.It was great. I was actually nervous at first but when i was standing in front of the bishop, it all happened so fast. I am now filled with the Holy Spirit!After that was dinner at my house. My whole extended family came.Had a great dinner:)

2 days after my confirmation is my Malay O-levels Exams. which is today........It was fine for me but had some shocking experiences. I actually managed to finish my karangan P1 1/2h before the actual ending time. I have no idea how i did it but it just happened. Not sure if it's a good or bad thing. I think i will only know it when the results come out in August. May whoever that's marking my paper be merciful!

Lastly, CHELSEA won the FA cup!Congrats to them especially to Lampard who scored the winning goal.Finally a cup after 2 yrs.

I am very happy with the experience i have gained from the first 50% of my life in 2009. Let's continue to persevere on with the remaining 50%!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

dying day

Yes, it's dying day today like what my sis wrote in her blog. Receiving our MYE results. I received my :
E.M(P1/P2),
A.M(P1),
Phy,
Chem,Comb.humans(Geog,SS),
Malay.

Not to say i did very super badly. It's just that i feel i am slipping further and further away frm my usual grades like each test i do. Maybe my expectations for myself are too high, but how can i accept that as a reason when my other classmates can do better than me? I cannot let myself just die down in this battlefield esp. when the main war haven't even started. Sometimes I think to myself, will I really make it if i continue working hard?But i cannot stop working hard. Not when I have to give advice to my juniors.

The previous para might have given u the thought that i did horribly. I passed everything so far. Lowest grade B4 i think. Actually expected those marks after i ended the papers or maybe worse.But i am sure i can do much better if i push myself.Wish me luck for my other papers on Mon.

Enough abt exams and results, i went bowling yesterday with some ppl. It was fun.Luckily managed to score some points.Although most of it went to the gutter. It was my first time so i think i did ok.

I will be going to receive my Overall All-Rounders Award this evening at Yio Chu Kang. At least something for me to be glad abt after the whole day of looking at my results.

Got to go now.
Signing out,
Vannessa:)

Thursday, April 30, 2009

last week

Having some "free time' now to update my blog. Thanks to Meila for re-reminding me.

Cross-country was last week. I got the 49th position.I ran as fast as i could at the finishing point and managed to cut some 6people.That's my strategy i guess.

anyway, the main mid-yr exams are starting next week and i have planned out what to study on the different days. Hope that i can follow it.

I am quite worried for some subjects actually. The marks that i get isn't very satisfying in those tests.The days are getting nearer.Y am i not feeling anything??

Last Wed, I had a chat with my mentor.I had a weird feeling and did not know what to answer when he asked me "What do u think u will be 5 years down the road?"We calculated and i realised that 5 yrs down the road, i will be 21yrs.It's so scary.Those 5 yrs will pass very fast.5 yrs back, i was in primary 5. It did not take long for me to reach where i am now.

After a long pause, he asked me questions instead of me giving him a whole big chuck of answers.It all adds up to I will still be living with my family, hope to learn how to fly, do sth i engineering, be with my 3 wonderful friends.it seems so nice to think about it. But imagine all the work i will have to do before i reach that level.

Got to go now. It's 11pm. Cannot stay too late.The next post will be after my exams. i hope i will not be too busy.Work hard everyone!Good luck to all taking exams(esp.ASSES).

Saturday, April 11, 2009

He is risen

"He is risen, Alleluia!"

After 40 days, the word is back again.Just attended an Easter Vigil mass yesterday. It was the longest mass i have ever been to. 3hrs+. Anyway, i am very happy i managed to attend it. It was my first time ever going for this Easter Vigil. It was so nice and solemn. The atmosphere of happiness and prayer was all present.

I saw people got baptised and confirmed too. They were so happy. It must be a very fulfilling experience. I will get a feel of it too soon.Confirmation is on 30 May!

After busy in church for the past week, I guess next will be in school. The remaining of Apr and May will make up parts of the most important days in my secondary school life. With my last CDSS speech day, presenting the SC state-of-the-union, mid-yr exams, SC investiture, choosing a teacher-mentor.I guess more will come out.

Happy Easter to all!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Term 1 is over!!

The first 10 weeks of my life in 2009 is filled with so many things that i have no one word to describe it. It's all filled with work+fun+excitement+challenges+busy+madness+fustration+satisfaction=?

Just had a 'survivor'camp a few days ago.It was also within these 10 weeks that i had the latest meeting since i was born.Until 9.07pm.Now, just thinking about the pile of homewrk will make me sick. i had done some but it seems a never ending process.I wonder what's holidays nowadays. Ask any student and u won't hear the word REST.Even Mr shashi ask us to have a break. It will be good if i could fnd time.

I can't believe O-levels is like getting nearer day by day.I can't even feel anything now. Maybe i am numbed by all the many daily things that i have to do already.Anyway, good luck to all that are in the same boat as me.Esp. the asses.

Also did a Myer-Briggs Type Indicator test during the camp. It's like some personality test. I got INTJ. Which stands for Introversion, Intuition,Thinking,Judgemental.Can't believe i got the same as ********.Maybe i have been working too much with *******.That's why.

Anyway, got to go and sleep now.Have to recharge myself for 7 hours of Physics tmr.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

why??what??

I have been thinking over this question since last week. What is the purpose of my life? Why am I brought here? What am I supposed to acheive?

For many things in life that we do, we usually look for a purpose or an objective in doing so or even ask ourselves why am i doing it?Like even in writing composition we need a purpose, in solving a math problem we need to know what we have to acheive at the end of it .

Actually i haven't really been thinking for the whole week about this question. Just remembered this when i was quietly sitting in church waiting for mass to start. and also when someone spoke about purpose today again.

It might be a short, 7 word question. and might seem easy to answer at first. but after thinking for a few seconds you might start getting puzzled. that's what happened to me.

This question really needs a lot of reflection and looking back at what we have done. and also what we are going to do.

I am still thinking about this one. maybe will let you know when i've found the answer

Saturday, January 24, 2009

maddening place i am in

3 weeks of sch has already passed. So many things have happened. Sometimes, i don't even realise that it's happening and i just go through it.or maybe i don't even have the time to think through.
  1. sec1 orientation
  2. cca day
  3. i am in potters&scribe now (a church ministry)
  4. preparatory exams
  5. applying the new structure of the student council we discussed about during the holidays
  6. my class that is going through like some disease
  7. something to be excited about,FINALLY......
  8. chinese new year
the sec1 orientation was alright. i was not the one really in-charge so does not really matter.However, i spent the time after lunch on that day to prepare for cca day the next day. This time, i was in-charge. I did for the student council but did not for NPCC. It was i can call it a success because many people signed up. the application forms had thickness of my science textbook.

another thing, i am in potters&scribe now. Actually i had to sign up for one as my pastoral attachment(PA) so that i can fulfill the criteria to be confirmed in may. Looks like if u take a copy of the tomorrow newspaper, my name may be there.Haha.The preparatory exams were so horrible.I had exams like the whole week. after one paper had ended, you will have to start thinking about the next. i think that was the most taxing week so far.

Like what i have mentioned earlier, my class is going through some disease and it's spreading fast. A cure is needed to be found fast or the whole class will get killed . I have no idea why just choosing a chairperson and a vice chair is so difficult thing to do. Actually it's not difficult but some people just like creating a havoc out of nothing.Why can't they convert their energy into doing something more useful for the class like decorating the noticeboard instead of causing trouble.

The Happiest Event Award goes to ........
I am officially promoted to vice-president of the student council now. I never expected this to happen but it just did. When mr wee broke the news to me on a saturday before chem class, i did not know what to say. i was just smiling there. maybe that's who i am, i do not show much emotions in everything that i do. The whole student council also finally received their new councillor badges. We recited the pledge again and received the badge.That was also when the teacher announce that i was vice.

lastly, the first day of chinese new year is today. Went to church in the morning and went to cousin's house for lunch after that. Food was delicious.For reunion dinner, we had a 8 course dinner at home with menu specially made.

nite!
Vannessa

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Good Bye 2008, Welcome 2009!


Wow, 2008 has passed and 2009 is here. 2008 has been a great year for me but i am not sure for the rest. i hope and pray that 2009 will be as good or maybe better. But many people say that 2009 will be a worse year compared to 2008. all the recessions. today's the start of 2009,010109,haha. and tomorrow's the start of sch. I think i will not have much time anymore when sch starts do update my blog. Anyway, i am going to post some pics from my birthday. I know that my birthday was like so long time ago but it doesn't matter.

Friday, December 19, 2008

5days and 2 hrs more to Christmas!!

It's been so long since i posted my last entry. As usual in my life, so many things has happened.all the enjoyment, fun, work, meetings, parties, food, and many many other things.I think i went to malaysia for a week without even staying there. Love the baskin robbins. So, 5days and 2 hrs more to Christmas!!, at the same time, maybe 2 weeks more till sch reopens.

Sec 1 registration was today. Met some weird and at the same time some nice people. There are many things this world is made out of.It would be nice when sch reopens but thinking of next year- O-level!!The holidays may be too long but sch may also be the same =. so what do we want actually?

teaching ryan how to ride the bicycle. He just can't balance his body. Wonder how are the days when i learnt how to ride one. I only know that i fell many times.

The whole student council is also going through like some restructuring??THere will also be a councillor camp this monday. People please come!!Why can't u all just follow??

So, Christmas can't wait! The christmas tree has been put up.Maybe will be spending time in chinese garden for a picnic with my cousins and the whole family. I think there will be a christmas league. Haha. Family vs family. Isn't it cool?? I really am looking forward to that.

Anyway, do enjoy yourselves these remaining few days this year. This year passes really fast and i do not intend to say goodbye to it.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Psych

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Holidays Official starting

The Holidays are here.Means no more headstart and remedial programmes. But maybe still have to go back for council things.The council has changed many things but i am still the secretary/treasurer but i thing added internal discipline.Hahaha.Many people will be going for their holidays now or going back home.but i dunno whether i will be going or not. Maybe. So, the councillor shirt is done finally. Orange. After much bugging frm those that i ask money from i always say,"My job is to collect money only the shirt u will have to ask another person"Those some people will understand it when or if they take over my job.
It's since has been 1 year i came went to india.Haha.Just saw the picture on facebook.
Also went to borders to buy a book."RUN" by jeff abbott. Read until pg 80 i think. Nowadays i am reading so slowly. Don't know whether is it the font is small or i really have read slower. Anyway there was a sentence, "The knife in the hand doesn't buy security when the other man has a bigger knife".So true.

I watched Quantum of Solace , the new james bond movie on 5/11. It was nice. A lot of action but i think the previous is better.

that's all for now. Happy Holidays!

Monday, November 3, 2008

After a long long time

Finally i am updating my blog. I have always wanted to do it but was very lazy.So many things have happened throughout this period in my life.Let me list them down:
a) end-of-year results
b)sch has finally ended
c)all the IRP, Headstart programme
d)Physics, Chemistry SPA
e)teachers leaving the sch
f)the "CRASHING" economy
g)My "GREAT" birthday
h)"FRIENDSHIP" problems- don't think about nonsensical things
i)finally got to get back to JB

My end year results are ok. Not too bad but not that fantastic either.2A1,2A2,1B3,1B4,1C5. But at the very least i improved from the beginning of the year.Got 7 in class. Looks like this year i never moved from 7-10.Hope to do better in sec4. The bigger news, sch's ended for year 2008.But the biggest news is that ther is still the Headstart and IRP programme.A larger news is that there was still Phy and Chem SPA. I could do those experiments but could not answer those questions. How fustrating! I could not sleep the past 2 nights because of the physics questions.Mr Jeremy Tan and Mr Ong left the school.That's sad cause Mr Ong can't teach us Phy anymore.And the worse thing is some people say Mr Gary Lee may take over.Mdm Shanti also left.

The "CRASHING" economy is seriously crashing and i cannot do anything about it. Just do what u have been thought since young, save money. That's the only thing you can do now.

Now, my "GREAT" birthday is "GREAT" in many ways. Xiao Wan, Meila and Sue Ann brought me to swensens. I seriously did not know they were trying to celebrate my birthday. Until Wan said." Should we tell her know?"I thought don't tell me they were trying to do something some people tried doing to me last year.I was so happy on the way back home.The other "GREAT" part was that i was sick on the actual day of my birthday.Why am I always sick on my birthday?

FRIENDSHIP problems are something you cannot rrun away from. I have mended one but another has risen. Just let the thing go and forget about it. Maybe it is easy for me to do that but not for the other party. Nevermind though.Just let it be.

I at last got to taste malaysia food again after a long time.So nice! Got to go now. Still have English class tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I copied Meila's also (with some changes)

My top ten most favourite foods
Japanese food
Western food
some malaysian(ipoh) food
macdonald's fries
very cold desserton a hot day
Pizza
Fruits(not all)
home-cooked food
Bread (some only)
Cake (esp. my mum's cheesecake)


Ten things I love doing
Sleeping
Watching movies and dramas(esp.hongkong)
Teasing and irritating people-sometimes
Eating
Hanging out with my friends :)(nowadays)
Solving puzzles(rubic cube?)
playing games
reading books
going on outdoor activities


Five things I love doing when I'm EMO
Staring at the surroundings
Making a long face
think back what i have done
Be quiet
Draw cubes or any 2D or 3D shapes on anywhere


Five things I love doing when I'm HAPPY
Laughing
Smiling
Try to not show it although it is always seen
grin
love myself and the whole world


Ten things I wish to happen
Get all distinctions for O level
Get a scholarship and fly to some great place to study what i want
be successful in life
To be a pilot
Go around the world
Can understand everything people are talking about
My family stay healthy
Be with somebody I love
have the gift of wisdom
Make people around me like me

Ten ridiculous things I wish to do before I die
Travel around the world by SIA (first class)
Invent something
advise people on how to live life the fullest
Buy anything i like when i step into a shop
get into the ladies squad of chelsea football club
Take a picture with a famous football player
Visit Stamford bridge(chelsea football club stadium)
go on the world's tallest building
Build my own house and have party everyday without working
To do something great so that my name will be recalled in history


Top ten most addicted song
none

Thursday, October 9, 2008

I am back

The End-Year exams has just ended.Yay!!I have been waiting for this day. I have spent a lot of time on this whole month studying.I really hope the results are not too bad. But i already know some are going to be very bad.Like my A.Math. Did i study as hard as the other subjects for this subject? Or is it that i do not have enough practise?I really have to do something about it during the coming holidays.

I am also very happy today for my Chemistry paper.I could do all the chemical calculation questions on the paper. I have never done that before.I thought that i would have to give up trying to do it. But i had to do it knowing that it would cost at least 10 marks in the paper.All thanks to the extra remedial lesson yesterday. He thought me how to do them step-by-step.Looks like the quote practise makes perfect really works.But i am not sure whether i will get it correct or not.

Anyway all's over now.I will just have to wait for the results.It will not be too long.School ends on the 24 October.After a few days of recovery, I will have to get back to the books.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Holidays are over.Was it even one?

Finally the holidays are over.Now i have to go back to sch earlier.The only difference during the holidays was going to school later.Anyway, here are a few activities to go through:

Councillor camp:
it was so fun!sad that many people never go.They missed out on so many things.Heard thia song during camp.Really nice song.(unbreakable ,westlife)

BBQ:
I had BBQ at my cousin's house.It was ok.Food was nice.

Homework:
I have almost finished my work except heymath,chem.Counted not bad already.

Well, sch for term 4 is starting tomorrow.I really hope to acheive something this year.help me!!Got to really study hard for end-year.
Bye!

Monday, September 1, 2008

Holidays? Never!!!

I was so happy thinking that the 1 week of the september holidays i could finally have some rest after a long long time.The whole term 3 was so tiring and exhausting.i practically did not have enough rest as usual for the whole term.But, teachers had to start thinking about homework and assignments.Never mind that.They also wanted extra classes.Just imagine for each science takes two days.luckily i only take Physics and Chemistry.Other than extra classes, homework,also got councillor camp.Councillor camp=planning.
I just feel like screaming now.My timetable:
sat:Chemistry class
sun:church
mon:chemistry class
tue:camp planning
wed:physics class
thurs:physics class
fri:camp
sat:camp
sun:My only rest day so far.But still have to surely catch up on homework and get ready for sch the next day.

When can i ever get some rest??Just when i thought something has been done, another thing knocks at my doorstep.I cannot just ignore those knockings. If it accumulates, the whole door will explode.
I am sure i am not the only one's who are feeling like this.My other classmates will also surely feel the same way.Some may even have more than what i have.But, this is all i can carry now.Do NOT add to it!!

I also just received my results for term3.Do not want to comment about it.I just am trying to pray and hope that everything will nicely be in place.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

BPL 08/09 is back!!

Yay!! The Barclays premier league season 08/09 is back again.The webpage can be found in my links. Go and check it out . Chelsea must do their best this time.My main rival: Manchester United.They won the title last season because of goal difference only wat.This time, Chelsea is going to have it.They signed many new players like Deco, Robinho also coming.
Enough about soccer........

This week,
Many things happened.

No. of test i took this week: 4 or 5 (cannot remember)
My worst day of the week: Wednesday
My best day of the week: Friday
My worst recess: On Wednesday

Let me elaborate now.I took A.Math,Malay, Geog , English test this week.Anymore??I cannot remember. The best thing is that i took 3 test in one day on thurs. The first three test mentioned. It was really very tiring.But it was an interesting experience.My brain never got so saturated before.
Well, Wednesday was my worse day cause many terrible things happened.In the morning, Mr.Hoe told me my chemistry test results.It was ........................... . I don't want to type it out.Person reading this should know what i am talking about.It was somemore my English test right after that.I felt so miserable.He said that i am not taking my work seriously and not studying.I was so surprised at what he said. The days before the chemistry test i was studying it like crazy.and he can say i never study.I was so sad and kept remembering wat he said.
This day was also my worst recess cause i found people smoking during duty.Call teacher also they never pick up their phone.In the end have to go to staffrm to find them.When the teacher reach the place, they already run away.Then after that was VE. Mr Shashi was complaining so much about the students in this sch of mine.They are horrible.

Now, Friday is the best day cause it was fun and i got many shocking findings.In the morning first period, was SS. Our test was using the CPS.I got the second.Meila was the first.Yay!! This shows that Singaporeans do not really know their country well.The second last period was Math.I got back my A.Math test results.I got 27/30.Finally, I passed an A.Math test this term.Then, he showed us our CA results for A.Math. I got A1 for it!I was so surprised cause i have been failing all the test except this one.In the afternoon, got NPCC. It was one of the funnest trainings i have ever attended.Finally, I am a cadet leader now. After so many years.(actually only 2 and 1/2 yrs)Learnt many new drills.So fun.The CI said that it was one of the most not serious 2nd class drill test he have ever conducted.We were laughing so much .

Enough for now.Bye.